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Thursday, December 15, 2022

Mental presence

    It has been an interesting few months for me. Not everything has been bad, in fact a large majority of things have been good for me, personally. I just mean that in terms of my goals with this blog and what I had wanted it to be for me, I continually failed myself. It's not all glum news, however, because I can say that starting in January, I want to try to be more active and involved with my health and the relationship I have with food.

    I had a good run there for awhile where I was posting every month and even getting out more than one post in that 30 day window too. It was exciting to talk about my journey with food and also share the vulnerability in understanding my mental health. I just grew fatigued with posting about the same results and how "next time will be better" so I want to officially do something about it. I want to set up a routine that crushes through the barriers in my mind, body and soul.

    It sounds empowering to write about but I know all too well how that powerful and inspiring feeling can slip through my fingers. So this is a short December post to those who still read this blog that I am not done, nor is my story. What began in 2011 when I was still in school and young will still be in development in 2023 as a grown man trying to navigate his own mental fortress. You only lose when you give up and while I've stopped to breathe and consider becoming one with the dirt at my feet, I've eventually kept moving forward. I'll end with something God has whispered in my ear more than once at this point and it keeps me moving foward, slow or fast, every time.

    It's not about being perfect, it's about being present.

    Until next time friends, have a great holiday season!