Last day of high school

It's make it or break it at this point. I either have to have the motivation or stay fat forever. Trust me, I've thought hard about if I would have the drive to go out that door and walk, jog, or do any physically helpful activity and to be honest, I think I can do it.

Maybe I'll need a little more drive than before, but let's think about it. I will have the 8 hours I was at school to myself now. I can either work more or go out and take a jog/walk around my neighborhood. Trust me, I can do that and sleep in too! I know I can, I just have to believe in myself.

As for motivation, let's just say I want to do this for myself, as I have always wanted too.  I just hope the summer opens up some blessings for me, y'know? I wanna kick this extra weight and have a transformation! I know that that'll only happen with effort and laying off the snacks, which is SO HARD for me.

To be totally honest with you, I haven't changed my eating habits and I could only stay away from pop for around a month before I went back and drank it like water again. I failed. But I didn't stop. I'm really going to try over the summer to be a better person and break that habit.

Hopefully my next post will have a better update.

One problem after another

So I have been feeling pretty good lately. My heel only hurts when I walk up and down steps or jog/run. I did my first set of Power Cleans Wednesday in Weight Training! I was so happy about that, I decided I'd try it and I didn't feel any pain in my foot at all when I did! (It's a exercise that works your lower ankles, etc...)

I even played Ultimate Frisbee at church Wednesday and it didn't hurt either! It was so fun to finally be able to do something again. I NEED TO PLAY TENNIS!! I think I'll post something on Facebook or something to see if anyone wants to play tennis. I really want to start that up again this summer.

As far as weight loss, I have no idea how much I weigh. I will try to weight myself soon, but I don't know where I can find an accurate scale. I only have a week left of school and I'll graduate high school. I seriously need to take my weight loss seriously, because if I don't... Well my goals won't be made (and to be honest, I don't see it happening this late in the game).

Guess I will just keep on striving and hope for the best next year. On the plus, I'll look good by college, I hope. I'll keep in touch.

Slight pain

So all I'm feeling at this point is slight pain in my heel or the right side of my right ankle. I know it'll heal on it's own, I just need to give it time. It hurts though to put to much pressure on it, but I'm out of any brace and in a regular shoe again. I have been for about a week now. I'm thankful that this is finally coming to an end because this has been my first week back in PE in 8 weeks.

To be perfectly honest with you, I'm thankful to have this class again. It's funny too, today my Max Bench Press went up 20 pounds! Is that even possible after 8 weeks of doing NOTHING??!!! I guess so... Give me some place to write and my fingers will increase my muscle. Haha, don't think it works that way...

This isn't much to say, but I'll try to post again when I start being more active.

Hopefully my last week in a brace...

I'll be perfectly honest with you, aside from my heel hurting when I walk, my ligaments don't feel torn any longer and I am hoping my heel will resolve itself.  I plan on being back to my regular self by this weekend. I'd better not be hurting next week or I won't be happy.

The doctor said If I'm hurting in 3 or 4 weeks (being next week), I need to call them because I will need physical therapy. Please God, I don't need that. I don't want that. I want to be fine. Perfectly and completely fine

As far as losing weight, I haven't gained anything back, I don't think (I HOPE NOT!!), since I've been out of Weight Training. I mean, I've got a big build regardless, so I'll always have plus sized clothing just for the fact that I've got broad shoulders and I'm so tall. I mean, I'll never fit in a Medium sized shirt, or even a Large, because of the type of build I have.

All I have to do is stem that body into a toned and fit dude. I'll be honest, I don't see this happening until halfway into my college experience. I assume I'll eat less and not have the chance to be so pudgy. I mean, I don't get a free food coupon under my pillow every day I wake up.

I just thought I'd share the update with everyone and I hope to go do upper body work outs next week! I REALLY WANT BACK INTO CLASS!!

Not helping myself

I'm not really helping myself at all by staying out of PE. When I went to see my specialist, I got stuck with a different doctor, but he said it was healing fine and I need to switch out of my boot in the evening and wear a brace that allows my foot to move up and down only and not side to side.

My dad was lazy and just made me wear the brace I got from the hospital. My boot quit airing up last weekend though so now I have to wear the other brace all day now. My foot doesn't hurt when you touch it or feel, but it hurts when I walk, that's it. I walk with a dumb limp now and it's super annoying. I wish I could just be fine now but I can't help but try to get better.

As for my exercise, I've kissed that good-bye. I'm not able to do weight bearing exercises and I am gaining more weight back so I've lost practically all hope on getting that to happen again. I don't know what I'm going to do... I need a better job, that's for sure. Make more money. That will help.

Speaking of, I'm going to apply at more places this weekend. Maybe since I'm 18 now, I can get a job that pays me more then just $7.25/hour. I need a little more income then that, if you know what I mean.

As soon as my foot is better, I will be able to get my license. At that point, I will be able to apply anywhere and get a job making more money.

I wanted you guys to know I'm not really helping myself as I sit around, but that the little hope I have of losing weight is almost gone. Even though I know it will happen one day. I just know that won't be today.

It wasn't a severe sprain after all...

So it turns out I didn't sprain my ankle like the ER doctor had told me after my x-rays. I had an appointment with my primary doctor that following Monday and he wanted me to get an MRI so I can get a better look at my ankle.

Well I went to the hospital and had to fill out some paperwork before I had to change into some loose fitting scrubs that were terrible, they didn't even feel like actual scrubs! Well I got the MRI and I had to stay very still for about 30 minutes while they did the MRI, I just listened to country music on the radio.

Afterwards, they just took me back to the room I was at before, I got dressed again, and I got to go get the boot i was ordered. Well I had to wait in this empty room for about 35 minutes with my dad waiting to go back and get my boot. It was really long and annoying. I wanted to rewind back to when this happened and fall on my face, instead of landing on my foot. I can handle a broken nose better...

Well the boot fit snug and it was a fancy, expensive boot that I wished I didn't need, but knew was necessary. I spend the day doing all this and it was really annoying not to be able to walk anywhere.

The MRI said that I had a Torn Ligament and it would take longer to heal then a sprain would... PERFECT!!

This is all putting a kink in my plans. I can't exercise very well if I can't use my foot. I can't lose weight in my gut at least. I really hate this is all... Sorry if I ranted a little to much.

Sprained my ankle

I was in weight training yesterday and we were running (and jumping) over boxes (these obstacles not very high) and I tripped over one and started to stumble half way through them so I kept jumping over them, trying to catch myself and I ending up stopping and catching myself on my right foot.

Well I don't remember exactly what happened after that, other then it hurt LIKE HELL to walk or move my foot. I went to the nurse (with the help of someone letting me put my weight on them) and I had to go home. The nurse said it was either broken or sprained. My mom got me and took me to the ER and I spent 6 hours, mostly waiting around.

Well we found I had a severe sprain and I needed a splint and to use crutches. Right now, its so hard to get used too because I feel dumb not being very good at using the crutches, but I guess it takes time...

I won't be able to do squat in Weight Training for awhile, even though the doctor said I should be fine by Monday. I don't know, I have to keep it elevated when I can and that's hard to do. I can't believe this happened to me!

I guess that's all I can say... I just hope I can get better fast because I can't lose weight with a sprained ankle because I can hardly hobble across a room...